my Christmas wish.

This time last year, I was visiting my dad at the hospital daily. With my only Christmas wish being that he could come home for Christmas, so we could spend it as a family, in the comfort of our home. And to my hearts delight, that Christmas wish came true and he was able to come home for Christmas but was brought back just days later. I remember him being weak on Christmas, just laying in the bed we had downstairs in his make shift room we created in our family room. But I did see smiles appear on his face as we watched my niece open her Christmas presents. Little did I know that it would be our last Christmas together. With Christmas fastly approaching, its hard to think of how Christmas will be without him.
I wish I could go back in time. I wish I could have him back. To hug him again. To share in laughs. To make more memories. To listen to him sing karaoke. To cherish more moments together. To take more pictures. To hear more stories. To have us all together again. My Christmas wish would be to have my dad back. But since I can't have that all I want is to see a cure for cancer. I will continue this fight. I will continue raising money. If you want to help me raise money you always can, the link is on the side. If I can't have my dad, I will continue keeping his memory alive.
I know we will get through this Christmas, but I know my dad will be on my mind always. I carry him with me at all times. Every practice. Every run. I dedicate to my dad. Every dollar I raise, is in his memory.
My heart aches more as each day passes. Each day getting closer to the memory of our last Christmas together. Each day getting closer to the last days spent together. Each day is a day without my dad.  But my heart is always with him.
One of the last presents I ever got my dad was the book: Why a daughter needs a dad . I'd love to just share another day with him. To let him know just how much he means to me. To let him know that I will never stop fighting. To let him know just how much I need him. To say I LOVE YOU,  one last time.
I love you, dad. To the moon and back.